Drummer’s girlfriend? …Or unpaid roadie? :P

Drummer’s girlfriend? …Or unpaid roadie? :P


#quartz #merkaba bday gift from my love 💜

#quartz #merkaba bday gift from my love 💜


holographicwaves:

This photo totally warms my heart.
Dress rehearsal with A Muse the day of the show <3

flashback to this day. I hope to one day have an outlet as wholesome and challenging and exhilarating as A-Muse troupe again. sigh.

holographicwaves:

This photo totally warms my heart.

Dress rehearsal with A Muse the day of the show <3

flashback to this day. I hope to one day have an outlet as wholesome and challenging and exhilarating as A-Muse troupe again. sigh.


I recently had a conversation with my good friend (via text) regarding my relationship, and how I don’t feel I can make a monogamist commitment at this point in my life.

I love my boyfriend so much, he brings so much to the table in every way that I feel is important. It’s the healthiest relationship I’ve ever been in, and he definitely satisfies me sexually. He is the sadist I always wanted! And is down for basically anything. When we first got together I told him straight up about my non-monogamist leanings, just as he told me right away about having a son. Our relationship dynamics have been a continuous conversation, and I feel I have really put to use everything I’ve learned during my forays into sex nerdery.

My friend asked why I was even still interested in other guys if I’m getting everything I need “at home”, and said that I should really make a commitment…or not. Which I took to mean that if I’m not monogamous, then I’m not committed to my partner.

No, I’m not actively pursuing anyone, nor do I want another boyfriend. However, I am not interested in making commitments I’m unsure of, and am not keen on closing the door of possibility. I don’t want a polyamorous arrangement. I simply want to feel that on the off chance there’s chemistry between myself and another person, I can pursue that relationship in an organic way, and not feel guilty. I also, more than anything, don’t want to betray my man. He has been cheated on in the past, so there’s some scar tissue there for sure. In our most recent conversation where I brought up exclusivity again I said “I just want to make sure you know I won’t stray from you” and he said, “monogamy or not, nothing is guaranteed; I know this from experience”.  Which definitely reassured me that he was down with our arrangement. He knows I’m committed to him, and that his feelings are my priority.

Sure, having an open relationship complicates things. But I feel it also makes us confront things within ourselves; such as jealousy, boundaries, and what we are comfortable with in our intimate partners. And of course I’m not looking for “mediocre sex with randoms”. I’m looking to be able to explore connections in an authentic way without feeling like I’m betraying my lover. That’s why openness is so important to me. It creates dialogue and discussion, helps us to confront boundaries and explore our limitations within ourselves in our relationships.

At first, Robby was unsure if he was capable of an open relationship, but the most important aspect openness is simply conversation! Being open and aware of your own feelings and expressing them to your partner as necessary. And sometimes a boundary must be crossed before you know of it’s existence. You just gotta hammer these things out as they come up. And yeah, maybe it’s more complicated than a monogamous commitment, but it makes me feel happy and fulfilled in my relationship. Monogamy simply makes me feel claustrophobic. After 6 years in a co-dependent relationship, feeling autonomous and independent is very important to me at this time. I may not feel this way forever but this is what I need right now, and am stoked that the man I love is on board, even if it pushed him outside his comfort zone!

/end rant.


Gotta dance around my grrrrrl @emersonartisan &#8216;s #pyramid sculptures all night! &lt;3

Gotta dance around my grrrrrl @emersonartisan ‘s #pyramid sculptures all night! <3


ugghhh boyfriend is very busy lately, which leaves me VERY frustrated, because he is also a huge tease.

it’s not fair.


Brass nails and why I have them.

brodingershat:

spacedyke:

anagrammaton:

ridgedog:

Ever since last night I’ve been getting a lot of questions about my brass fingernails. First of all. NO, they are not prosthesis. i have them for a specific reason.

Here’s what they look like:

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another view

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gallavantinggallifreyan:

fencehopping:

Melting aluminum with an electromagnet.

damn, tag your porn pls

gallavantinggallifreyan:

fencehopping:

Melting aluminum with an electromagnet.

damn, tag your porn pls

Source fencehopping


Gonzo is saying good morning 🐱 ridiculous lil&#8217; boy I have.

Gonzo is saying good morning 🐱 ridiculous lil’ boy I have.



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